Yesha Callahan

I Need You Bad

This morning as I was sitting in traffic on I-95, Jazmine Sullivan’s song, “I Need You Bad”, came on the radio. I’ve heard this song several times already, but I never ‘listened’ to the words. Needless to say the words hit home this morning and eventually tears started streaming down my face.

Yes, I’m pms’ing, but it was a little bit more than that.

Every word in this song is something that I’ve wanted to tell a certain person in my life for years now. But you know what, the fear of rejection sucks big time. So I guess I’d rather sit back and keep my feelings to myself. During these past couple of weeks, I guess I’ve been in reflection mood, primarily reflecting on the things I should have done and shouldn’t have done when we were in a relationship. I guess everyone has their faults and weaknesses, but there comes a point in time when you have to be accountable for your own actions. Some of my actions came from jealousy and the ‘that should be me instead of her’ attitude when we broke up, but still had a pseudo-relationship going on. When you have a person in your life that knows you better than anyone else, it’s hard to let that person go, even if it’s best for both parties. I guess he’s the one I consider my “prototype”.

In any event, work calls and I figured I’d keep this post short & simple, but for those who haven’t seen the Jazmine Sullivan video yet, enjoy!

 

  1. August 28, 2008 - Reply

    never fear rejectyion andhappy 45th

    • August 28, 2008 - Reply

      @rawdawgbuffalo

      easier said than done, jones…

  2. August 28, 2008 - Reply

    That song’s my ringtone! Love it.

    • August 28, 2008 - Reply

      @Bourgie, Esq.

      It’ll be on my cell by the end of the day! The words are so appropriate.

  3. August 28, 2008 - Reply

    o funky i feel for you. I havent really had the one yet, but i have had friends that i let go of the wrong way. My Everything- Mary j maked me a lil teary b4.

  4. August 28, 2008 - Reply

    Hey chica! You know I know how ya feel :). I agree with Rawdawg, we shouldn’t fear rejection. Although that’s easier said than done when it’s someone you’ve known for years. I’m fresh off the “we should be more than friends…NOT!” train so just a couple of things I wish I’d thought of before…
    ~ Be prepared for the response (whether good or not what you expected)
    ~ Be clear about why you’re sharing these thoughts/feelings (i.e., you want to be more than friends, etc.) because they can be a little slow if you know what I mean 🙂

  5. August 28, 2008 - Reply

    Awww…I haven’t been privileged to feel that way yet. I mean, I’ve messed up some pretty good relationships, but in the end, I was able to move on pretty easy. I don’t know–maybe you should let him know how you feel. I mean, will rejection make you feel worse than you are feeling now? *sigh* Stupid PMS!

  6. September 3, 2008 - Reply

    I am loving her so much right now… not so much this song but Bust your windows and Lions, Tigers, Bears are in heavy rotation always

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