This morning as I was sitting in traffic on I-95, Jazmine Sullivan’s song, “I Need You Bad”, came on the radio. I’ve heard this song several times already, but I never ‘listened’ to the words. Needless to say the words hit home this morning and eventually tears started streaming down my face.
Yes, I’m pms’ing, but it was a little bit more than that.
Every word in this song is something that I’ve wanted to tell a certain person in my life for years now. But you know what, the fear of rejection sucks big time. So I guess I’d rather sit back and keep my feelings to myself. During these past couple of weeks, I guess I’ve been in reflection mood, primarily reflecting on the things I should have done and shouldn’t have done when we were in a relationship. I guess everyone has their faults and weaknesses, but there comes a point in time when you have to be accountable for your own actions. Some of my actions came from jealousy and the ‘that should be me instead of her’ attitude when we broke up, but still had a pseudo-relationship going on. When you have a person in your life that knows you better than anyone else, it’s hard to let that person go, even if it’s best for both parties. I guess he’s the one I consider my “prototype”.
In any event, work calls and I figured I’d keep this post short & simple, but for those who haven’t seen the Jazmine Sullivan video yet, enjoy!